Cindy Williams Gutiérrez
Belonging
Ocean is where I find you. You return me to the womb, the first watery world where we met. Your rip currents pull me in, metamorphose me into a sea-going creature: all fin and fluke. You are high tide, glistening on my smooth skin. You wave your white flags of spume across the sand, but I am the one who surrenders. I follow you to the horizon. This is the other place we always meet: at the border. The aperture between worlds—where secrets that cannot be seen from one shore are unearthed. Here, I see a river can join two countries like sky and sea. And the vanishing point can be where two cultures—twin tributaries—disappear into one body. Here, contradiction blazes hotter than the evening sun seeping into the deep. Afloat in the center, I balance the feuding flares. I am at home in this beauty that bleeds. And you remind me that I am borderless. This is when I find you: in flame and fern, wind and pine, stone and tern. I become porous. This is when I emerge with abandon.
Poet-dramatist Cindy Williams Gutiérrez is the author of three poetry collections and five produced plays. Her awards include Poets & Writers Magazine 2014 Notable Debut Poet, 2015 International Latino Book Award Finalist, 2016 Oregon Literary Fellowship, 2017 Oregon Book Award for Drama and 2018 Willow Books Editor’s Choice Poetry Selection. In 2022, her choreopoem In the Name of Forgotten Women was acclaimed as “a vibrant call to action” by Willamette Week. Her poems have appeared in Harvard’s Journal of Feminist Studies in Religion, PSU’s Portland Review, Benedictine University’s Quiddity, among others. Cindy is inspired by the silent and silenced voices of history, herstory and her own story.